vocation?

What I really need is to get clear about what I must do, not what I must know, except insofar as knowledge must precede every act. What matters is to find a purpose, to see what it really is that God wills that I shall do; the crucial thing is to find a truth which is truth for me, to find the idea for which I am willing to live and die.

1 August 1835

I have been thinking a lot about vocation. Do I have one? And if so, what is it? Is it from me or from God? What if I tell people and they laugh?

This morning I thought about one of the earliest pieces that people normally read when they start with Kierkegaard – the journal entry for 1 August 1835. And, in particular, it is the end, “and die”. Is the vocation something I am willing to die for? Or, to put it another way, am I willing to live it for the rest of my life? No matter what the cost. If so, whether the church says it is a vocation, or other people, because less relevant. Yes, God speaks through others! But am I dedicated enough to stick it out to the very end even under opposition.

And then I thought about a quote from a book I have been reading (which I think I have shared before):

And it is in this sense that it has been rightly said that monasticism is a kind of substitute for mar­tyrdom.

I am not sure what a “substitute” means in this context. And I know that various forms of monasticism have sometimes been called “white martyrdom”. So putting it all together I am still as clueless as always!!!

One thought on “vocation?

  1. Join the ‘clueless as always’ club!! Nah- that’s one label you don’t have to wear- so strike that one off!! Frustrating though when you are keen to find your ‘place, role’ but can’t or have to wait🥴 (On that one- I understand -a bit -at least.) On Fri, Aug 27, 2021 at 9:01 AM, sacred singleness wrote:

    > Marco posted: ” What I really need is to get clear about what I must do, > not what I must know, except insofar as knowledge must precede every act. > What matters is to find a purpose, to see what it really is that God wills > that I shall do; the crucial thing is to find a ” >

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