Today we had our first Lenten Prayer Group. We have had an ongoing online Prayer Group for some time but this was the first at church.
I decided I was going to try to “be still”. It is really hard. The exterior silence is one thing but the interior a completely different thing. I found a comfortable sitting position, finally worked out what to do with my hands, and just sat there. I think it is the first time I have sat still for nearly an hour.
The exterior is a skill but so is the interior. Allowing God to speak. Being attentive to Jesus in the silence. Letting my mind drift but then pulling it back to the centre. I think this is a skill I would like to work on.
More and more I have enjoyed alone time. So much so that I am enjoying time with people more. No pressure to preform, to know all the answers, to see the way ahead. And, for the first time in my life, I do not mind “me” – ok person, a little hard to get along with, but not too bad.