#ThomasMerton May 1, 1961

I have been reading “Turning towards the World”, volume 4 of Thomas Merton’s journals. I always get much out of reading Merton, especially his journals. There is something very human about it all – the minor concerns and the major discussions all in a private context.

I read the above, from the entry for 1 May 1961, yesterday and was struck by the last sentence. I am exhausted from talking. And, yes, I have build an image of myself as someone who has something to say. But mostly I am exhausted because I want to talk to people about real things and not the weather or the latest specials at the supermarket. There is so much noise in the world that likes to parade as conversation but is really just space-fillers. So rather than talk for the sake of talking, I am silent. Maybe I am just rude?!

rethink?!

I have not written in a while. No reason! But I thought a change is as good as a holiday so …

I have changed the name of the blog to my mostly anxiety driven life – or my MAD life.

I have also set up a podcast with the same name – go and follow. I think I have learned enough from the podcasts via WordPress that I can now graduate to some real hosting.

I have returned to reading Merton’s journals. They always seem to connect with me on a very basic level. They are human! Like with Kierkegaard, I wish I could have met him and had a cup of tea and a chat.

And I am sick – I have an infection that has required antibiotics. I am not a good patient.

But the biggest change is that we have gone back to the Anglican Church. We have been to the local parish for the last three weeks. It is a complete change from everything in our past but somehow it fits. The Vicar is extremely kind and loving – she remembered all our children’s names after one week! The people are “Anglican” – diverse but human. To contrast that the senior pastor at the megachurch we were attending ones got the name of a person who was dying wrong during the announcements.

Not sure if that helps anything or anyone.

cult of one

I have been rethinking the podcast (which has not been going super hot or at all). So I am rebranding it to Cult of one.

Also, I watched this video that gives a good introduction (I think) into what a modern idea of cults is: